My only Kryptonite.....

Amidst the resilient aura of this loquacious entirety

Hidden is the weakness that only a few knows the prophesy

The potent, conflicting, independent, authoritative force

The robust, sting, sharp and innovative source

Hidden inside this stalwart physique of evident beauty

Within the one they call the savior of an advent melee

From a distance the infirmity does exist in an open air

The life, the strife, the present, the future, the reason of glare

Amidst the arrogant stance, the shrill voice, the undulating hair

Beneath the flashy garments, the alluring charm, the reliable fair

Is the secret that is half known, the blurry that is partly shown

The soft scrape of proud façade, the mix of pink and green silently moan

Hidden underneath this man of steel, this bird, this plane, this superman

Within this laser blasting eyes, this corpulent lips, this artist, this soft hand

I learned, I lived, I love that…

Everything you say i will do

I learned, I lived, I love that...

My only Kryptonite

is

YOU

Ass in you she don’t fade….

With impish smile, sloping its head

With changing hair soft as bread

It looks and occasionally sound smart

But breath so foul fuck its like a fart

Deceiving presence with its innocent entirety

Soon it’ll reveal its crushing stupidity

Its purpose to be ridden to carry stuff

But its damn weak, its might is a bluff

What is it, Is it a camel, is it a horse?

Legends say, just read it, full of rumors

Why does it exist, it’s a useless creature

It’s an impediment, a stupid loser

But they do exist, they are around

To play, to fool, put your mind on the ground

So when this is encountered, do ponder fast

Because an ass should only be made for an ass

Nobody knows.... ME

Parched with the heat of forlorn life

Lack of fresh air slicing resembling knife

Dried in the desert of abandoned love

Being paid with fatigue rise and fallen dove

 

Unknown, invisible to strife’s lineage

With inconsistent showing of supposed bondage

With clandestine thoughts of bothering conduct

Awful river of tears on the cot the product

 

Perplexed with conflicting treatment of devotion

Relying on petals of flowers for the prediction

Clueless of scenes, deprived of even small lexis

When a heart breaks, breakeven lacks its axis

 

Probing cure, emerge thy presence in front of a glass

Sick and tired of hearing “this too shall pass.”

Sublime angel of the furthermost vigor intensity

Heal this dilemma cause nobody knows it but me….

HOAXY THE CLOWN part 2…

Attached and feeling deserted

It came with a smile with and a mind perverted

Shared jiffies of peculiar excursions

With declaration of amiable illusions

 

It maneuvered the jaunt with smolder mugs

Introduced the carnival and shared the hugs

In the shore it projected mammoth laughs

Bits of pieces of iniquity hidden in half’s

 

Everybody ruminate base on the looks

Everybody forgets to not judge the books

It will be loved, you will be drawn

It will be amusing, you will be torn

 

Keep that smile, keep that bliss

Cause day will come it will be amiss

Unfair is the world of cackle and glares

Hoaxy – the metaphor of DAWN spares

 

 

 

TROUBLE

Been there done that, been with 288

Still the longing, hoping for that enviable fate

Grieving for that fanatical lasting bliss

Searching, checking, it’s not in any of my list

 

Same shit, different day - what I always say

Good looks and charm, be smart everyday

Discussion with all kinds of life

All ends with a certain kind of strife

 

Music – my neverland, my rainbow, my drugs

Family – my source, my force, they give all shrugs

Friends – my drink, my jugs, my lasting aid

Loves – my kiss, my life, my bliss to get laid

 

What am I, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing

Where am I, I don’t know where the fuck I’m going

When will I, be pleased with this earths entirety

Who am I….. need to figure… need to find me…

Missing...

I miss my son, his quatit laughs

His soft voice and naughty acts

 

I miss my mom, asking me where I was

Who I’m with, if I’m ok, to call her was a must

 

I miss my sisters, our small talks, our sharing story

Scolding me about not picking the right kind of lady

 

I miss my friends, drinks, trips, crazy stunts

Loitering, bombing, lasses one of the hunts

 

I miss them all, I miss the time I’m with them

I miss the places we go, every moment was a gem

 

I miss …  dodon … papu … closet … under the bed …

 

I miss myself.

BLIND date...

I walk in streets without my cane

Nomadic on the colors of visual pain

Virgin skin of a gullible safe coat

My mind hoping for days without loath

 

Suddenly a miracle appeared in my identity

A flash of hope within – a curiosity

My prayers, my desire, my dream, my faith

All of a sudden I feel its worth the wait

 

A lady with open mind and innocent grin

With questions “where have you been?”

A diverse being, a different culture

An eminent soul, a heart so pure

 

Then dawn breaks, suddenly a sight

A visual fantasy, I caress the light

Swiftly I see the colors that I just once memorized

Akin to bliss, delusion, veneration mesmerized

 

But lightning strike my window to fantasy

I woke up, it was only a dream, never was a reality

I should have known best that it was only another sham

I should have known best it was a transparent scam

A devious world, a wrong panorama

Facts of life are full of depraved drama

Now that I had a glimpse of what can be seen

I’d rather be blind again, with harmony of silence I keen

 

I walk in streets without my cane

Nomadic on the colors of visual pain

Virgin skin of a gullible safe coat

My mind hoping for days without loath

FIRE AND ICE

Warmth soul of the fickle strife afar from touch of soft hands

The flame of dawn scene echoes beneath the foreign lands

Cold period of yearning a piece to this entire existence

Wintry voice of a tired soul a word of persistence

 

Hot stroke of mourn with every note that lingers the ear

Hammy furred the delicate skin with whisper – I am here

Icy days of bemused questions… of wonder… of lust

Moist the mirror it fades it dissolves it shows the trust

 

Drunk as drunk in the tavern of jovial and two sex

Unconscious minds laid in a mat of king hex

NC – founding the Fire of trouble……… ice of strife

Oblivious veneration we eat, we moan, we survive life

WAHABAHADI...

It’s not a bad idea after all

That you chose to be with me

It’s not a bad idea after all

That you chose to love me

Cause come to think of it

We were the opposite

Come to think of it

We almost did quit

Come to think of it

You didn’t like me, and I didn’t like you

But look at us now, so happy together

Look at us now, can’t live without each other

Its not a bad idea after all

That you I chose to be with you

Its not a bad idea after all

That I chose to love you

Cause come to think of it

You’re not even sweet

Come to think it

I hated your wit

Come to think of it

I didn’t like you, and you didn’t like me

But look at us now, so happy together

Look at us now, can’t live without each other

if you love me, call me...

What is amiss that is so hard to recognize

The appraise that is so sheer in your eyes

What is the signal that lingers in the mind

The thought that was acutely kind

 

Where is the smoke of the burning blaze

The tie that agreed to be gripped amidst the daze

Where is the fusion of warmth sentiment

The reason to hold this oblivious excitement

 

Why baffle between angels and demons

The cause of entirely hazed confusions

Why mirror behind an old distorted thought

The rationale in arrears all these was brought

 

When will the sincere conversation ensue

The last sign of a fairy tale coming true

When is the ultimate awaited kiss

The answer to what will make dawn bliss….

Beautiful Stranger

Your eyes trailed my shadow as I entered the room

I walked without a heed straight to be loom

 

I had my gulps and you had yours

Separate index but there was a force

 

Drawn to your presence I was magnetized

Risk of pride rolled like a dice

 

Banter was exchanged by our sounds

With pranks and laughs we shared common grounds

 

You adored my voice and my witty charm

The moment was faultless, spicy without a harm

 

With hope, faith and a thousand smiles we left the noisy corner

If it’s meant to be we will meet again… my Beautiful Stranger

HOAXY THE CLOWN

With all your drama, with all your shticks

The actions you make are full of tricks

With all your touch, with all your lies

Damn you were an imp in disguise

 

With all your yells, with all your story

Now I see you as nothing but a phony

With all your swindles, with all your acts

I said “What the fuck? ” None of them were facts

 

With all your laugh, with all your evil grin

Its deception, being vain is a sin

Go to hell you stupid clown

May the rest of your life be full of frown….

WORTH

You called me weak, you called me a fool

You called me idiot you used me as a tool

You read my utterance you ask if it’s you

I answer who else, but nobody knew

 

You called me unstable, you called me broke

You called me impatient, my heart you poke

You question me every now and then

If I am just one of those pervert men

 

You called me savior, you called me true

You called me charming and I believed you

You say your worship, you say your care

With crying eyes on me you stare

 

You gave me faith, you gave me hope

All these you have whispered, made and wrote

You said you need time until your stable state

But you forgot to ask yourself “am I worth the wait?”

P.D.A.

Travelled late than what was agreed on

Met at the gate of the HIT's place

The crazy drove the aged sedan

Watching its visage was indeed fun

Arrived at the grand’s domicile

Was welcomed with veritable smile

Gobbled on the lovely fare

Happiness around in genuine share

Searched for the sand to settle down

Was looking for tipple for us to drown

Played along the shore of pleasure

Ecstasy surrounding the air was pure

Headed back, tired as hell

But extreme bliss was in the face all can tell

Had feast, had laughs, had cheers to say

That concludes the breathtaking P.D.A

2W…3M…1Y?

I cry myself to sleep

Close my ogle after the weep

Staring at your portrait is all I can do

It’s the closest thing to be beside you

 

I hold my buzz and look for your name

Tempted to call, its driving me insane

But I have to direct this draining will

And just wait for your move to feel

 

Two weeks, three months, one year…

Will you wait until I’m no longer here…

Will you just throw this delicate soul

But don’t you worry, I know I won’t be a sole…

 

I wish you well, this I’ll tell

I wish you bliss with every kiss

I pray that you will find what you’re looking for

All the best, all the hopes, all the open shore

M.A.ry...

In the still of the night
Her arms holding me so tight
Her skin sliding mine
Her eyes stared like the stars shine

Her mouth swallowed
The tongue followed
Her wet lips I taste
My hands on her face

She leaked and bit my neck
With thousands of petty pecks
Her hands grabbed my chest
Her temptation was more than a test

She held my delicate means
Interleave in her frail flower
We danced with formidable grace
Passion, fervour, adoration was our shower

We lounged on our backs
On my shoulder she rested
Closed our eyes with beams
I cry... Damn I’ve been molested....

ENOUGH

Enough thinking, enough reflection

Enough waiting for that certain indication         

Enough doubts for crying out loud

Enough searching for the dawning of a cloud

Enough pain, stop being insane

Enough asking is he more than a name

Enough trying, enough playing hide and seek

Enough closing that door, “I love you” you should speak...

MAKING THE CHOICE...

Start with what you like, make the hike, get off your bike…

Look at the stars, don’t put any bars, forget all scars…

Listen to the breeze, feel the mist, let go of all disease…

Smell the scent with the silence of lent, don’t say you can’t…

Feel the warmth without harm, stare at its overwhelming charm...

Achieve the make believe – follow what the heart conceive…

Love the bold, arms to hold, make it the Greatest story ever told…

Piano, cards, songs with K ii S

After labor we went straight to the domicile

Chilled, smoked had a yak

Gave a choice, the living or the cradle

Without a doubt, the cradle is the space to slack

 

Sat, laid, while the piano was played

Watched, thought, while veneration was fought

Rehearsed, converse in the still of the night

Spades, flowers, diamonds, hearts below the room’s light

 

Called, ordered waited for the rations

Laughed, frowned, thinking of questions

Washed, consumed, drank, washed again

Eyes, hands, skin, a touch pretend

 

Listened, adored, searching for a song

Found, sang, desired it lasted long

Swayed, played to the hymns that will miss

Knuckles, plans, trips, double smiles, all done with a K ii S

TAKE ME AWAY

What are you looking for, why the wait?

Who told you to leave it all to faith?

I might be gone, I might pass away

“It’s not meant to be,” is that what you’ll say?

 

Time is but a measurement

An excuse for fools

You wonder, you wish, you hope

Or those are just statements, part of your usual tools

 

Be brave, be strong

This is real, this is the dream coming true

Enough doubts, enough thinking twice

Soon you’ll know, my kind is even less than two

 

I will wait, I might have patience

For a day, for weeks, for months come what may

Make that call, make that reposition

Just cry… take me away!!!

K ii S

In the midst of dilemma

In the hour of pain

Comes along K ii S

It made me sane

 

Gave the smile to my face

Frowns erased

Held my tender

My heart now is better

 

With stolen moments

With limited time

It hunts for my smile

A treasure in my file

 

I express thanks

For the judgeless trust

Will hope it’ll last forever

Forever I’ll stay with K ii S is a must.

Never never Land

With moon and stars a sign of hope

The rush of skin felt again

The hand of life held once more

The lips of faith brushes my ZEN…

 

Allowing entirety to be hurt

Falling to the arms of despise

Inducement made me dream

Just to wake up, realize its malevolent disguise…

 

Sun shines then the rendezvous rescinds

Patent façade of the dreadful hint

Lies pass thru my psyche and soul

The beauty was a beast heads up, dark as coal…

 

Heaven sent, description for DAWN

From 288 lasses and comrades

The chap that all males want to be

The dream that all girls want to more than see…

 

The fresh glass of water, the ice in fire

In a dreadful dessert, in hell

The seraph which they plead for

Too good to be true, the perfume of heaven they smell…

 

Amidst the praises, amidst the hail

Amidst the optimism, amidst the fairytale

The Hit with twist frowns

Pretentious, facades of a clown

 

Track of tears seems translucent

The long for life always on the breeze

All the hymns, the keys of ebony and ivory

These are cries, these are bemoans of wish

 

Until the next dream not a care how long

Until the faith is felt, touching the sand

Please be true, don’t push, don’t lie

Take the hand… walk to never never land……

STAND

Will I see the stars at night

Will I see the sun shine bright

Since you’ve been gone

I can’t go on with my life

Anything you ask I’ll do

I made you smile when you’re down too

When you said Good bye

I wish you’d come back

Cause I cant go on my own

I can’t go on trying to be strong

I tried to please you, care and understand you

And I don’t know what else I have to do.

To stand you…

You were my earth, you were my life

You were my everything, my strength and my pride

Now I’m here waiting, for you to come back

Left here crying, on my own

Now I’ll try to go on my own

I’ll try to go on and be strong

Will try not to please you, care and understand you

I know what else I have to do..

To stand you…..

Had a hard time sleeping, searching for the reason

Why you’ve change and why you stop caring

I held on, but you moved on

So much for your heart of Stone…

Now I will go on, on my own

I will go on, I will be strong

Don’t need to please you, care and understand you

I know what I’m gonna do

To stand you….

Everafter…..

We see our grandparents grow old together, laughing with us in a family reunion, from a distance sharing the pleasure of a domestic bequest.  We all unconsciously spot the fairytale that they are experiencing and that we whisper in our wits “they’re living happily ever after.”

Hidden inside those façade of bliss were the track of tears that we never saw, the dilemmas that made them worry once upon a time, the villains that they once faced using their swords of patience and understanding, the flame throwing dragons that they crushed using their shields of perseverance.   

But they survived – together. 

They have endured the tribulations that they never imagined happening. 

They crawled to surpass those spiked fences, by holding on to each other, giving a tight grip to ones hand and tolerated the bashes.

They made adversaries and critics swallow all their words, by staying true to themselves and their feelings. 

They have proven that amongst the three things that last in this world, faith, hope and love……

The greatest is love.

what a shame... not a shame, a problem.

Been subsisting this for more than six months now and I still am in a predicament on how to comprehend the nature of the populace around me.  According to them, they’ve been operational for more than five years, but I guess experience is indiscernible if aptitude is not given as a dowry.

The realm that I’m handling has been the owner of blames and accusations but it has been my nature to not go into battle with obtuse individuals because this will mean that I will condescend on their level of discernment.

The intimates that I have has been my source of survival, my spring of driving force, my supply of beam whenever I drag myself to labor.

It is an infamy that a business such as the hell that I am at is widespread.  What a shame…not a shame, a problem….

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?

Another week of dreadful Monday meeting
With a bunch of nincompoops and thieves
With a counterpart who looks like I villain elf
And females in covered leaves

I can’t wait for it to be over, their wits are making mine suffer.
Lord, please listen make me comprehend.
Are you facing me with your rear? If you’re not…
then what the fuck am I doing here?

Beyond control

By six fire and ice encountered, bought victuals which will be consumed later…

Went to hitwidtwis’s asylum and viewed the box of leisure, the window of finicky site.

Almost every second the exchange of maw language was occurring, the fervor of the skin creates heat that was tormenting past ones imagination.

Struggling to dominate what ones affection expresses….

Then the cuisine was munched, lied in the cradle with arms clasped

A few more water shared, a little graze on the hair, slight strokes of the skin.

The inevitable happened, fire and ice united, outbreak of adoration, the affection which until now is considered to be a phenomenon Beyond Control….

FRUNCLE

After a taste of ecstasy in Malacca….

A weekday usually starts at 12 am, I conjecture the fact that since I arrived in this mire of a place my customary time begins at 6 pm.

5 pm….Waited for 2 hours for the one liner “FRUNCLE,” …..to keep my sagacity tacked, I engaged into a banter with my life.

FRUNCLE finally arrived, he played sticks while slurping the bronzed liquid that makes our wits slower but eminent.  Conversing about how the hope of extreme bliss will look like, how hitwidtwis can unexpectedly become a branch of the TREE. 

I’m just elated that FRUNCLE and his family existed amidst my plummeting verve, introduced me to life to make me appreciate that the best things in life are free…

After the urn was emptied, god went to a go through with the band, recurred what just occurred…

Went back to his domicile….

Heard the voice of life….

And laid in the cot with a smile…

Meet the 'ters

Stepping on the doorstep of clueless domicile…
Introduced me to my female reflection… tidy, bops and keys….
Presented me to a fresh mother and a pearl of existence….
I wonder if it’ll agree of my outer shell, my inner soul, my pleasant smile, my hoping charm
Question if they’ll feel my blameless intentions…

Before midnight, I guess they did, I guess they do. Fairytales do come true… Envy me…
Pray someday it’ll happen to you…

One for Life..... I MISS YOU BEFORE YOU'RE GONE

The sun has risen
Dew is 'round
You held my hair
and made me warm

I saw your face
blushing in pink
Then I frown
'cause I feel down

I saw you smile
to lift me up
then I felt so high
high, high above

Now the sun is setting
night is near
then dawn shall break
your voice I'll hear

I close my eyes
till then I wait
for your soft whisper
to make me awake

Only your voice
and only your smile
could liven my heart
and open my mind

That's why I miss you
before you're gone
said I miss you
I miss you...
Can't stand to be alone

Can't stand to be alone baby
Without you, I feel damn crazy
Cause you're my guide
you're my pride
you're my life
so please don't ever leave my side....

I damn miss you before you're gone.....

Yesterday...

Yesterday…

Started with signs of misfortune and mishaps, no voice, sporadic heart, no cash, day was unkind…

The whole DAY was just the same shit of load with the virtue of acceptance in mind…

Then came dusk, the ember of Amber materialized… made me smile twice, damn it was nice….

6 – 11, felt like heaven, wanting more, wishing it won’t end, though I know it’s like a roll of dice…

I hope the world isn’t that intricate, I hope it isn’t that unfair….

Hoping someday, somehow, adoration for us we share…

Tell me why I don’t like Mondays…

As the song says this line, hoping the irony of it tickles my sanity. Every Monday of my damn time in this crumbling place, I drag myself to work, striving to understand and hunt for the reason why the greatest brought me here. A piece of distress, a section of torment, a quarter of resentment, a chunk of disappointment, same shit different day.

Today is something atypical I hope, woke up with a sore throat, a sporadic heart but with a beam that denotes the ferment of ending work at 5pm and enjoy the aura of being free. Freedom to converse on whatever matter without any judgment or supposition, having the pleasure of being elated with the presence of the feeling so unfamiliar but has provided undying bliss from the day I congregate with thou.

Now tell me why I don’t like Mondays – because it’s only one day in a week.

1st song i ever made

First date

I woke up early this morning
Cause I can’t sleep all night
I was thinking of something
Can’t get it out of my mind
Its like a whisper from the sky
A song from the stars
REF
Cause I will have my first date tonight
A beauty from everybody’s sight
A dream a wishful fantasy
A girl will be going out tonight
With me…
Everything looks wonderful
Everything looks free
Its’ like a light shining down on me
Damn its so heavenly
Its like a whisper from the sky
A song from the stars
REF
Cause I will have my first date tonight
A beauty from everybody’s sight
A dream a wishful fantasy
A girl will be kissing tonight
CHORUS
I don’t know, what to do
My knees are shaking, I’m having goosebumps too
I don’t know, what to say
Just wanna make her happy, in a very special way….
REF
Cause I will have my first date tonight
A beauty from everybody’s sight
A dream a wishful fantasy
A girl will be sleeping tonight
With me…..

A SONG FOR MY MOM

SOURCE

Here I am, with nothing at all
Still standing tall, with my body and soul
Got nowhere to run, got nowhere to go
Trying to survive, and just live this life
REF
Then here you come, with everything to give
Here you go, my wonderwall
Put a smile on my damn face sadness erase
Giving me force to hold on
And keeping me strong
CHORUS
You’re my angel, you’re my heaven
You’re the reason I am breathing
You’re my sunshine when it rains
My charger when I’m drain
My stairs to floors, you open up doors
Cheering me up, to finish the course
Youre my source

When I’m alone, got noone to hold
When I’m dazed, confusion grows
I feel like a ghost, noone can see
Searching for direction of where I would be
REF…CHORUS TILL FADE

IF I'M A GIRL - BY dAWNNE

Will wake up in the morning
Ask you what are we having
Can you cook this recipe for me
Will give you no choice at all
When you’re done give me a call
Make it fast I’m hungry I might fall
Now just sittin’ here and raise my feet
I want a fork so I can eat
Will wait till you give me what I need
Say can you pass that food to me
Even though I can reach
Will just relax as if I’m in a beach
REF
Cause I am the queen of the world
You’re a boy and I am a girl
CHORUS
So say you’re sorry
If you don’t please me
Offer everything you can to me
Cause I don’t need you
I just want you
Sometimes I miss you
Of course I love you
All these things I can say and do…
If I’m a girl like you…

Will ask you where you were last night
But when I’m out you have no right
To question me unless you want a fight
I will tell you tell me when you’re mad
So I won’t make you feel that bad
And when I do it please don’t feel so sad
Ref – Chorus
You have to be there when I’m down
Make me smile when I frown
But please don’t be this needy not to me
You always have to this fun
Make my days shine like the sun
But don’t assume from me or else were done.